Holiday.

Island in the sun

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain.

Terang.

Even in the dark hole, there must have light.



If someone out there have depression right now, I recommend you to read 'How To Turn Life's Lemon into Lemonade, Healthy Thinking' by Dr. Tom Mulholland. His book helped me out from the dark pit hole depression lil bit before :)

若い年齢

Berhingus, Jahil, Mistake, First Love, X Matang, Adventure = Youth.


ps: Miss being young and innocent.

W-day.

Memang dah JODOH. Bertunang kejap terus kahwin.

Congratz Kak Long & Abe Joe.

Btw, saje nak tunjuk First Malaysian Wedding Video 100% by IPHONE 4 & IPOD by cstproduction. style kot.


First Malaysian Wedding Video 100% by IPHONE 4 & IPOD from cstproduction on Vimeo.

ps : "Mane nak cekau duet oii" - Shakir Shabudin.

Transition.

Door to another room.

Dulu, time akhir2 time Form 3, bile kene pilih samada nak masuk Science Stream or kelas Latihan Kejuruteraan. (kelas LK kompem2 aku x nak masuk, x reti melukis langsung) slalu terpikir ade kemampuan ke tak nak blaja Biology, Physics, Chemistry bile dah masuk Form 4.

Time Form 3, belek2 buku Bio, Chem, Phy senior macam susah gile nak blaja.
Name makhluk2 dalam Bio tu pelik2 i.e Sclerenchyma, adenosine triphosphate, monosaccharide etc etc. *bg aku pelik time tu*
Rase cuak ja kalu masuk Science Stream ni kantoi.

Tapi, selalu tenangkan diri sendri . Sume mende kite blaja kene ikut level2. Dari level senang ke susah. cth time umor 3 tahun, truih blaja Add Math, mesti susah gile. *exception for genius*

So, skrang ni. Lepas belek2 buku "Current Medical Diagnosis and Treatment", apasal term2 lg la pelik?. Terpikir lepas dapat official letter MBBS dari main campus Kuantan.

BETOL KE AKU NAK WAT MEDIC?

Tengok la macam mana nanti and please pray for me. hoho. Harap2 boleh pass sume.

Pseudopseudohypoparathyroid!

p/s: No. I'm not officially a medical student yet. Bulan 9 ni baru masuk as a first year medical student. Sebelum ni ramai ingat I'm already a medical student, siap tanye "kalau kene simptom ni, mende ape sebenaqnya?"
Sorry, I don't know. Sepatutnye, penyakit2 ni sile tanye doctor. hoho.

pp/s :

“Ya Allah, berkatilah hidup kami di bulan Rejab dan Syaaban dan sampaikan (hayat) kami kepada bulan Ramadan.”

Ahlan Wasahlan Rejab!

random. 100th

Miscalculate the amount of caffeine I should take, I end up do not sleep this whole night.

Insomnia? That zombiely disease was already being thrown away from my life. I try to make sure daily amount of caffeine is sufficiently taken. A morning without coffee is like sleep.

When I try to sleep this night, I pick up my Walkman and listen to some song to make me sleepy. Well, it doesnt work and I get my handphone to check what time is it right now.

*4.47 AM*

So, I can calculate how much I could sleep to make sure I get ready for the class.Hmmm... tomorrow is mid semester exam.

Subconsciously, I check one by one all the messages that I got before this and realize there's too many sms from my fellow friends but LACK of sms from my family. It's not because they didnt sms me, but i'm too lazy to reply them. I guess when all my family members live away from home i.e. hostel, it make our relationship bond weaker and we don't clearly know what's going in our family.

Well, that explains why every time I came back home, I feel like a stranger in my own house.

For the record, no. We don't have any family problem. Just ordinary problem like everyone else.

Owh, whatever, dosser! Sleep.

Kuantan : Voyage to The Future

Masjid Indera Mahkota Campus. (macam Kubah Al-Sakhra kat Palestine)

                            Before departure                                          Kulliyah of Medicine

Afiq G : "Tu mamat gile kamera". XD. Luqman. Subhi. Bunyamin.

Gerbang KOM

Gathering place for Medic students.

Big Sahel Akmal Tower Clock. hoho

Model : Syafiq. Hazmie.

East Coast Mall : "The Most Happening Place in Kuantan"-Afiq G said sarcastically.haha

Baru aku tau peserta2 program ni ramai bdak DQ. huhu.

Haidar. *Bukan photoshop.*

Din dah maju skang woo.Seyes weh!

Chalet Aman Sari *pic yg ade. bukan aku shoot*

ps : Sebagai Programme Coordinator utk Trip To Kuantan ni, aku betol2 mintak maaf atas segale kekurangan yg ade. seyes, mmg byk kekurangan.

pps:To Medcy committee, sorry ak x p Post Mortem aritu, ak kene submit EAP esok hari nye *this is an excuse, obviously.huhu* kalu korg nk tau gak ape aku nak bg tau time post mortem, aku post dlm ni in the next post. sorry guys, I did my best.

*These are personal pictures.not officially from MEDCY*

and I NEED A DSLR.*Nikon or Canon?*

Wake Up.

Streamlining for Main Campus Course------> Interview

ps: nak bace exp INTERVIEW senior lepas. kat SINI

zzzz~

 

 ps : Tumblr is Cool~

Hometown?

"Where is your hometown?"

"Where do u live, ur origin?

"are u kelantanese?, I wonder"

"u're a Sarawakian?"

"where are u from?'

The question that some strangers (cikgu ke, bdak2 baru kenal ke) always asked me when we start to know each other.

Reaction : Confused face.

"Pardon me, did u ask me whether ,where i live or where i born?"

I can answer that question with many answers.Sabah? Sarawak? Kelantan? Terengganu? Pahang? 

Funny things, if they ask me,"which district?".ohoho. sorry, too many answers to choose, mate!

Sabah and Sarawak.

- I spent my most childhood time in Sabah n Sarawak.Live in a bungalow (sewa je) with other families. That house have many scorpions like we have many pet cats around our typical house (Uia, kat UKC byk gle).

-Sabah, lived at an island known as Pulau Penyu (sounds like Pulau Penyu, i guess.kinda.). Always ate turtle egg.haha.

Kelantan.

- Stayed at my village.There are two moments I remember most. First, I spared with another boy, kampung boy.Well I lost after he used fighting technique like a Thai Boxer. Come on. that's not bad after all for me as an Island Boy. Island boy vs Kampung boy. perghh epic.!

- next day, when we played "Police Entry" or known as "Buaya Duduk", me, that didnt know much bout its rule, used "lastik" to shoot one of these boys and he cried. urgh,come on,I thought he's a tough guy. U're kampung boy, rite?..after that day, i  never play that game again with them.hoho.

Pahang.

-Pahang is the biggest state in Peninsular Malaysia, so, there were many districts I lived, one of them is Kuantan. First day I enrolled in that school, I spoke Kelantan dialect with teachers and friends. "Mung nok g mano pahni?..g make jom?" or "Ni negri Pehe dop?" and they will have this 'this-boy-is-from-another-planet?-or-he's-an-alien?' face.haha. after few months, i could speak Kuantan dialect.( every district in Pahang have different dialect eventhough there are in the same state).

Terengganu.

-I just stayed in this state for just 6 months bcoz my dad had a problem with his co-workers, i guess.huhu. then, my house now in Kuala Lipis.

In wiki, there is a term for this type of children.

A third-culture kid (TCK / 3CK) or trans-culture kid is "someone who, as a child, has spent a significant period of time in one or more culture(s) other than his or her own, thus integrating elements of those cultures and their own birth culture, into a third culture."^[1] TCKs tend to have more in common with one another, regardless of nationality, than they do with non-TCKs from their own country.

Now, i have a problem to communicate with my family, even though we're TCK. we have different culture bcoz, my bro tend to speak using Lipis dialect like "‎0k jew law nak blanje..." or

"kowUnk TngOk r cndri Lagu nie...ApiT nIe sbeNanyer memBer kpd meMber Akak Ak...".wtfish.!

My sis tend to speak standard dialect or KL dialect.sometimes Kelantan dialect.

Ironically, I can easily squeeze in any state-based group. When I join conversation of Kelantan group, I tend to speak Kelantan and same apply on another group. Sounds i have many friends rite? 

The truth is they are just an acquaintance, not a close friend. I guess I just have 3 or 4 close friends.huhu.

It seems the acquaintance also bring great help in certain situation just like Malcolm Gladwell said-

"People weren't getting their jobs through their friends. They were getting them through their acquaintances. 

Why is this? Granovetter argues that it is because when it comes to finding out about new jobs -- or, for that matter, new information, or new ideas -- "weak ties" are always more important than strong ties. 

Your friends, after all, occupy the same world that you do. They might work with you, or live near you, and go to the same same churches, schools, or parties. How much, then, would they know that you wouldn't know? 

Your acquaintances, on the other hand, by definition occupy a very different world than you. They are much more likely to know something that you don't. To capture this apparent paradox, Granovetter coined a marvelous phrase: the strength of weak ties.

 Acquaintances, in short, represent a source of social power, and the more acquaintances you have the more powerful you are."

TCK sounds cool rite?.oh, now, i'm an Adult Third Culture Kids (ATCK).haha

*If I born in Kelantan, it means I'm a Kelantanese?*

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This song is all about one man that didnt have any food left except moldy bread.( Budjav Lebac).

It happens in certain countries. This is sad song n .....funny. :,)

Probability

it's been awhile i didnt post anything. i just woke up from very long and deep sleep.(u decide whether it's literally or figuratively)

recently, i just learned about probability in Math. It reminds me about my youth back then. SPM, high school n etc. Suddenly, i feel so old and wish, i already achieved my targets that i set back then. ( the truth is, i'm not.)

I'm not trying to teach probability here.( if u want to learn it, ask my lec)

The basic thing about probability is how many ways we could find to achieve something ,for example, 100++ ways to unlock a briefcase that has a combination lock of digits and letters. (i'm not teaching, just explain to make sure u can refresh it back about probability  :P)

Something is related about probability and my life.

Funny thing, it's how I try to find my true self in this wild world. It's all about try and error.

Throughout this year, I always want to find myself..my true self. so, there are many times I pretend as someone else,to try out whether this or those personality is suitable for me or not.

Sometimes, i'm just using my theory to choose the most suitable persona. Leader?. Pious? Athlete? Carefree?

Am i hypocrite?..i dont know, try to find out by urself. that's not the main issue here.

oh, yes. i forgot about main factor that i couldn't find myself. that's principle.that's just like a fundamental of probability.

If I know exactly what i'm looking and craving for, i will narrow down my big scope. Just like how we want to find the combination lock for a briefcase. Our focus : combination lock, not its color, its size nor its weight.

oke. done. now, i want to find my true self. just do it but not blindly, it based on my principle.

i will find that combination lock and unlock my 'self'' briefcase.

Now, i'm already on the right train to become the SAHEL AKMAL. 

This gonna be a LEGEN.........wait for it.........

*planning for travelling in Europe*

18 years of living.

6574.365 days.

achieved any targets?..some targets.

Muhasabah diri.

It reminds me, I'm getting older and matured.

ps: Thanx for Kenny Rogers walaupon sanggup dtg dr jauh.
     Thanx for bday prank. (MEDCY) T_T
      Thanx for hundred of bday wishes (walaupon just dropped by kat FB)
      Thanx for bday wishes walaupon no. henset korg, ak terlepas pdg save.huhu
      May Allah Bless all of you.
 

Hope and Regret.

 Salam.

HOPE is a very strong and unique word.

Barack Obama also used this word instead hundred of words for his campaign when he ran for the President of United States post.

Hope is a word that completely can fit in ourselves.

You hope for a better world,
They hope there are no wars or economic problems,
Muslim hope the world can see Islam is a peace religion,
We hope we can become a rich person in 2-3 years.
We hope everything is going smoothly without any problem in our life.
We hope we can live or study abroad at overseas.

"Hope" makes human can strive and reach their maximum capability to get something they want in their life.

We hope for good grade for exam result.So,we study hard and smart all day, we ask our lecturer anything we don't understand, we buy many reference books, we make a study group to discuss our subject each other.

BUT,

How about if all your plans for "hundred years"didn't worked as you HOPE it supposed to be.

You hope to get an opportunity to study abroad at overseas but you stuck at local university.
You hope to become a great chef , but, you come out as a guard.
You hope for beautiful wife but you didn't have a chance to get married for many years.

REGRET.

As humans, the feeling of regret will come out and unavoidable, especially when what we want already in front of very eyes, but, somehow, for whatever reason, we can't get it. Maybe we lack of guts, support, financial problems, or we under a circumstances that make it impossible for us to get what we hope.

This is a situation for the phrase " If only I....." easily slips in?

If only I study harder and smarter,
if only I didn't waste my time with something unreasonable,
If only I know how to manage my personality.

So, our beloved Prophet already gave us as an good advice.

Abu Hurairah (may Allah be pleased with him) reported : " The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said, " A strong believer is better and dearer to Allah than a weak one, and both are good.Adhere to that which is beneficial for you. Keep asking Allah for help and do not refrain from it. ( If you're afflicted in any way), do not say , "If I had taken this or that step, it would have resulted into such and such" but only say," Allah so determined and did as He willed". The word 'if' opens the gates of satanic thoughts.

Sahih Muslim.

Regret is a very negative feeling. Sometimes, because of regret, people do something stupid like didn't believe what was happened, suicide or kill other person, become a crazy person or the worst is they didn't believe on God. Nauzubillah.

There is no positive outcome if you just keep thinking " If only I...." for something that already happened except if you're thinking like :

"If I study harder next time, maybe I will get a better grade."

It's okay if you're thinking to reflect your own mistakes and change for the next time.

"When one door closes, another opens. But, we often look so REGRETFULLY upon the closed door that we don't see the one that has opened for us."

So, how to decrease or make that regret feeling disappear from our life?

Allah, our God already promised us :

Abu Said and Abu Hurairah reported that our Prophet ( Peace be upon him) said " No fatigue, nor disease,nor anxiety, nor sadness, nor hurt, nor distress befalls a Muslim, even if it were the prick he receives from a thorn, but that Allah expiates some of his SIN for that."

 Al Bukhari and Muslim.

Come on, an obvious choice for us as a human that always do many mistakes and sins.

Just imagine, you're walking to go to a supermarket happily, and accidentally, you hit a rock and suddenly fell.

Two choices :

-Keep thinking " If only I had not went to the supermarket, then, I wouldn't fell" or

-Quickly thank Allah for giving you an opportunity to expiate some sins.

We as a Muslim already given a promise by our God that He will expiate our sins if anything 'bad' happens.
We are lucky right?

This is based on my experience that my unit had been assigned to invite the exhibitors for main event in our university. We set an ambitious target to invite Petrosains, Planetarium, Pusat Sains Negara and etc. 

Hey, there's nothing wrong about being an ambitious,right?.That's what we supposed to be.

There is one week before due date and we still been rejected by all those people that are busy handle their own event. Oh.! We already contacted many exhibitors. Just imagine, you have less than a week to invite someone to fill in a large space in our university's hall and no one can't come.

I kept thinking if only I had been assigned for another task, maybe just a Special Task, that will be no problem for me. 

But, there is one question keep puzzling in my mind that time " How about I manage to handle this problem, that will be a new EXPERIENCE, right Sahel?"

Maybe after this, I know how to sweet talk exhibitors to come to our main event.

I know how to communicate with someone like Dato' or CEO of company.

I know how to manage if there's no exhibitor for exhibition.(huh?)

Then,I texted Bro Afiq, my close friend a.k.a my co-advisor to ask his opinion how to deal with this problem.

First sms I got from him :

Plan for the worst, hope for the best, Bro.!

  

 Good ,simple advise to solve my problem?. For me, my answer is YES. (Thanks Bro! )

I already forgot that we as a human just PLANNING for what we want and only Allah has a will to make it as a success or not.

After I contacted all those exhibitors, I came out with the BACK UP PLAN- the worst plan I didn't want to do- to setup our own booth and make our own exhibition about Muslim Figure in Medicine World. huhu

LIFE

Our life is boring if it runs too SMOOTHLY.

It needs some different type of problem to make it interesting.

Life is a bed of roses, right?

Ps: Oh!.I forgot. The Discovery Week exhibition is a success when two days before due date,

TELAGA BIRU SDN.BHD. agreed to come as an exhibitor.Alhamdulillah, I knew HE just want to test me. :')

Jom pi TELAGA BIRU Booth, skang ni tgh diskaun 10%-35%.hoho

Award?..hoho

1. Thank the person who gave you the award and the link of the person :

Thanx BRO! haha. simple and easy.

SYAZWAN SENSEI 

2. Spread the award to 15 blogger who you like & you think their blogs are awesome :

i will list ,maybe 5?

1. Langit Ilahi

2. Saiful Islam

3. Genta Rasa

4. Coretan Perantau

5. Herie Dent

6.Amalina Peter

7. Musafirah Da'wah

8. Izhar Kasim

n all the blog that I follow.

3. Tell 7 things about yourself :

-19 years old 0 month 0 day.

-Currently reading What the Dog Saw - Malcolm Gladwell book

-a medical student.Insha Allah

-respect the others' opinion.

-Love coffee.

-Simple

-Want to be an unofficial chef and designer.

Change-- Henshin..!

Kamen Rider KABUTO cool kan?

Change?..

Have you ever watched Kamen Rider KABUTO or other Kamen Rider?

They have their own belt to CHANGE and become a Kamen Rider.

Cool kan?...

Sound childish ?..

When I watch Kamen Rider, that HENSHIN (Change ) keep me  changing in my life.


Is it not easy to change rite,?..I admit it. That's a fact!.

Maybe, your parent or your friends,they always keep asking you to change yourselves. Maybe your habit, your attitude or just your appereance but no one can change us, except....yeah..US..! Only us can change ourselves.



I have this idea that everyone want to change.At least, everyone would think about it even just one sec.

The poor want to change become a rich person

The bad criminal want to change become a good one.

The burnt out person want to change become a motivated.

The just-little-ugly man want to become a handsome and charismatic person.


You have that tought rite?


Maybe I'm not a suitable person to teach you how to change but, I'm just saying.

So,here we are.


1.Don't change ..........drastically.

 Oh.! Let me share you my story.


My first year at university, I had this feeling, I mean burnt out feeling. My life is confusing, studying inconsistently, boring life and yada yada yada.

Then, one day, I made a decision to CHANGE after I read some motivation books. I set my new vision and targets, I made a timetable,change my room's appereance, change my personality, always go to the mosque, i CHANGE everything ,like I'm the most motivated and systematically person in this planet and guess what?..yeah, after one week, I forgot my vision, hardly seen my timetable,and that's all..!, I felt like a hypocrite that time because I didnt felt that was myself.

That will happen when you want to change yourselves everything DRASTICALLY. Change is a good thing, Don't get me wrong BUT if you change smoothly, you will achieve your own target.

How about this analogy (terpengaruh dgn Cg Ali,haha.Cg Ali, Cg Ali ), you own Proton SAGA car that you always drive it to go to your workplace or your university.

One day, you send it to workshop and they modify EVERYTHING about that car, its engine, its bumper, its appeareance and become a Mitsubishi LANCER EVO. Yeah.! Only one day . How does it feel when you see it?..Do you FEEL that car is YOUR Proton SAGA when you drive and see it?..Absolutely NO.!..It become completely different from your car and you feel like "This is not my car, where is my car huh?"



How about this? You modify that car, but you don't change it drastically. For example, this year, you change its tires, after one year, you change its bumper, and so on. After 10 years, it become like this.

Cool...eh? Different huh?.but, if you keep driving that car ( not literally ) in that 10 years and keep modifying. After 10 years, when you drive that car, its seat, its smell, it is familiar rite?..and you know and feel

" This is MY car..!"

geddit?....x paham?..oh crap..nape aku dok menulis mende mengarut ni ..haha

Exception :

If someone must change drastically like become a Muslim revert. That's completely different. They must face many hardship to change themselves and please guide them. Tabik spring dol..!


2.Set your target and REWARD yourselves.

When you want to change, you must set reasonable target. Different types of change have different targets.

For example, you always sleeping when lecture time, so, how bout ur target is to hold ur sleep for just one HOUR?

Another example, you want to deactivate your FB account for the rest of your life, and how about you deactivate it for just one WEEK first time, and after you achieve that target, reward yourselves.Maybe just a candy or shopping time, I don't care, choose your own reward. Then, after two days, set new target to deacvticate it for one month.Keep doing it until you can deactivate for the rest of ur life. Easy huh?..Target, reward, target , reward.

3.Maintain

This is the most difficult part about change. Maintain your achievement.

My close friend that I know her since childhood. One day, I don't know, maybe her head hit a rock or something, she changed became a very good girl, start recite al-Quran Kareem everyday, always helping people, talking like an educated woman, like "Are-u-sure-this-is-Rin (bukan nama sebenar ) ?". Alhamdulillah, that's a good sign, but after maybe one month, she turned back to become her oldself.

There are two factors that we need to focus to maintain our achievement.

First, you need a guidance that can always support you, give advice, guide you like friends, parent or teachers.

About Rin, no one guide and advice her .So, she was easily burnt out.!

2nd. Knowledge.

Yeah, knowledge. If you want to change and maintain it, you must have your knowledge by your side.That knowledge will guide you when there is no one to guide you.

By knowledge, you will find a good reason why you change.


Geddit?

so, let CHANGE...!


HENSHIN...!

*Special for Kamen Rider KABUTO fan*

p/s : I want to be a better man

my pets..=)

Elder brother...

Oh..I'm the eldest brother in my family..and I think it's been awhile I didnt give any advice or some sort..you know..brother's job.

and Mid Sem Break, Ibu asked me to send my sis to Kuala Lipis by bus because there is something important that she must attend.

Seriously, when we are talking each other, she is like a stranger, I didn't know her problems, her friends, her concern like I cant read her mind (everyone cannot read people's mind..i mean Literally cannot).*All my siblings studying at the hostel school*
When she started discuss about her problems, like 'why this is happening to her'.. about many problems.

I said " How about I tell you the story of the Japanese fishermen ( I read it in Life is an Open Secret ) ? Then, you reminisce whether your problem is REAL problem or it's just some kind of..."

*speak in Kelantanese dialect*

The Japanese have always love fresh food. Fresh crabs, fresh prawns, fresh fish, fresh sushi, and anything fresh, but the waters close to Japan have not held many fish for decades.So, to feed these Japanese people, fishing boats become bigger.

The farther the fishermen went, the longer it took to bring in the fish. PROBLEM?..yeah..there is a problem here.The trip took more than a few days and the fish would not be fresh.Like I said, the Japanese only love fresh food, and hate the taste of not-so-fresh fish.

Problem?..So, they need solution here.They install freezers in their boats and they will freeze the fish while catching the fish at sea.Freezers allowed them to go farther and stayed longer.

Maybe the Japanese is too picky, they could taste the differences between fresh and frozen, and they did not like the taste of frozen fish.The frozen fish being sold at lower price.

"Any idea to solve this problem?."asked me.

This time, they installed fish tanks.The idea was this- they would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks-ALIVE. After little trashing around,the fish would stop moving.They were tired and dull, but they were still alive right?

How about this idea?..Nah, FAILED!. The Japanese could still taste the difference. Since the fish did not move for days, they had lost their oh-too-fresh-fish taste ( Picky2 Japanese,huh ! ).They preferred the taste of lively fish, not sluggish fish. "We want lively fish...!, We want fish..!, We want want fresh fish...!"

That is when they had their brilliant idea. Not sluggish fish, not frozen fish.

They came out with new idea. To keep the fish tasting fresh all the time,the Japanese fishermen still put live fish into the tanks, but, now, they add a small shark to each tank..! The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state, because they now have to swim actively to avoid being eaten by the shark (eventhough , they will being eaten by that Picky Japanese). The fish are challenged.

My sis asked, "So, do you want to tell me we must always use many solution to solve our problem?.."

Me " Kind of, but there is something more important than that."

...........

Me "The adversities, the problem that we face in our lives are actually our little sharks- sharks that we need to make sure we stay awake,alive, vibrant and active (so, we can be eaten by that picky Japanese because we're fresh fish.hoho ).These sharks will make us more competent, intellegent, matured, and persistent in our lives.

How about we begin to slack off in our duties (maybe sometime,I did that), growing tired?...

Yup,we will be eaten! (not literally)

My sis "Yeah, great!.That's how our life works"

...........................................................................................................................................

I have my little sharks that always wandering around me to eat me.

 His name is Hitam (not little one). He always keep me busy to handle many activities at UIA.

He is a tough one and not my pet. Still cannot tame him.What the FISH!

This is a cute one. Everyday I meet her everywhere. Always bite me but, I can handle her.

Make me always keep studying. Name? "ExamO". Now, his big bro want to eat me a.k.a MUET.hehe

 This is Baby Papadomabuchi. Juz weird lil fish that make keep me asking too many 

weird question about life,religion, politics, society and yadaa yadaa. (That's me in that pic..hoho)

P/s: How about your SHARKS, my frens?

Lost

Lost....Confused..

Burnt Out..Unclear..

Still trapped in darkness and cannot find any way out

I want to find back that LIGHT

And catch it using my own hand and never lose it again...

Insha Allah...

p/s : Ye..Baru aku faham perasaan org yg x bleh catch up sesuatu dgn CEPAT

WHY?

salam and heya....

it's been awhile i didnt post anything..even i think i want to lock my blog and stop blogging..

it's because i'm kinda confused WHY i blog,for what reason i post something...because i think i'm not blogging because i want to blog

when i remembered back then, i want to blog because i want to improve my English,.i want to express my own opinions without any influence of other things.

Recently, i'm blogging because i want to please people to read my blog,i want to show to everyone "i'm the best" and i'm kinda hypocrite.

One of my friends that is old timer blogger since he was at secondary school, he said his blog now is all about his bright side, not original content and maybe there was copy-paste from another blog.

Then, he find himself blogging because he just want to increase his followers and pleased them. That's kinda of sad, rite? he know he is lying to his ownself and now, he start another blog that represent himself.

so, i must take time to make sure, i blog because I WANT IT!...


off~

happy mother's day!

My mother is one of the most positive people I have ever known, and I have learned so much from her throughout my life. No matter the situation or how bad things appeared, she always looked on the bright side. Her entire world as a housewife might be caving in, but it was still a 'great day'. Have you ever been around people like that?

I called it 'active hope'.That kind of relentless hope is contagious. She always happy-delighted that Allah had given her a brand new day- and she know that, tomorrow was going to be even better.

One year ago, I received my SPM result and with self-cofidence, sure, I thought I will get straight A's....but,unfortunately, I just got 9A1 and 1 B3...huh?....I thought B3 is a biology subject but, it was an English subject...!...English?..

While my parents hugged me and said" Congratz" many times, I keep asking myself...why English?...I'm not a loser in English, I used to get highest mark in my class before..and for sure,i cant apply for any scholarship to pursue my study at overseas..

I began to sulk and then I began to list all my success from PTS (Penilaian Tahap Rendah) until PMR,..my results were always - flying colour-I was a perfectionist before- how tragic it was for me, I tend to climb to the peak of Everest and that day, I was buried in the ground.

I let my negative comments pour out of my mouth while Ibu just looked at me with an upbeat smile, the same she always had, and after I finished my pity party, she simply replied, "Well, you had a great life, my son- You always tend to get good grades, and wow, 9A's,,what a great gift..! and everyone is happy with ur result"...yeah..i can see my abah with his happy face, my friends, my teachers..hmm.."i dont know,Ibu, maybe, u'r right"
now, I always want to improve my English and one of my alternative ways is through blogging.=)

And when I didn't get JPA scholarship for PILN and just get it for local university, Monash University,Sunway...I started to think my dream is over..but, she said " There are thousands out there want to get JPA scholarship, but Thank God.. you get it and also get a chance to pursue your studies as medical student rite?"..then, I asked JPA to change my scholarship for Monash U to IIUM..wooh..

What an amazing way of thinking!.No matter what circumstances comes along,that woman always has a great attitude.

Did she recognize the reality of harsh situation and struggle?..Sure she did!..at her childhood,she just a daughter came from very poor family, and she managed to achieve her dream to become a teacher...!

What she chose to do about those situations was something else entirely.She chose to have hope that a better day was coming, and to believe that God always has everything under control. I realize now that I actually grew up in a household with a motivational person. She continually saw the positive side to every difficulties in life.

Although her food and lifestyle choices have not always been the best, my mother is getting older now but she is still experiencing vibrant health. I believe much of that good health is due her amazing ability to control her thought life. She tell herself what she is going to think, rather than allowing circumstances and problems in life to dictate her attitude.

A positive attitude won't give you everything in life, but it will bring you more than negative thinking. The way we think is a choice. So if you have a chance to choose one attitude or another, choose to be positive.We become what we think about. A person is what they think about all day long.

Our thoughts have tremendous power. if you sow a thought, you reap an action, if you sow an action, you reap a habit, if you sow a habit, you reap character, and if you sow character, you reap a destiny for a lifetime.

What we continually think about today determines who we will become tomorrow. What does that means to us?...It's simple- we have to change the way we think..!..Controlling our thought life is extremely important..!

p/s: thank you,Ibu, I will be a good son for you, happy mother's day everyday!

please forgive me...

Sorry Almighty because of my evildoings...

Sorry Abah and Ibu for not being a better son...

Sorry Siti, Akmal, and Suhayl for not beng a best companion u ever have....

Sorry my friends for not being your BEST buddy....

Sorry pals for any inconvenient....

Sorry my future wife for not being an adoring husband....

Sorry my prospective son and daughter for not being an admirable dad...

Sorry everyone for everything that i had done....

Sorry SAHEL AKMAL for not being a BEST Sahel Akmal in this world....

I'm very sorry,,,Please forgive me....truly sorry....